Don't think for a second that I underestimate what you have given me. I appreciate the fact that you have done all in your power to enable me to succeed.
However, you need to understand that I show my gratitude in a different way than most "normal" children. I don't write sappy cards, take pictures, and give hugs. Instead I have the knowledge that in adulthood, your children become your life. And as a parent you do everything you can to enable them to succeed. So instead, I show my gratitude by making the most out of the opportunities that you give me. I will not bring shame upon your efforts by not-succeeding. You don't need to look far to see that there are people, even within the family, who have been given opportunities (some greater than mine) and squandered them with their wasted potential.
I realize wholeheartedly what you have done for me, from day one. The times where you were on your own as a single mother. The times where I was difficult. The times where you put my interests above your own. The times where you gave me your food because there wasn't enough to go around. The times where it seems like I hated you. The times where I did not appreciate what you did for me. Well, this is not one of those times. Don't sit there at your monitor and try and pretend like I don't see what you have done for me.
I just show it in a different way. I show my gratitude by making you proud the only way I know how: by succeeding.
Her reaction was a mixture of pride, sadness, and acceptance that I am just different.
So recently, it is not just my mom who is having a problem with the way I act. Heartless, selfish, asshole-ish, or whatever. I have butt heads with people in the last couple months, more than I have the whole year. Maybe it is because I am becoming selfish again, dealing with my own problems, my own stress, becoming that cut-throat person I was in the past. Maybe I have lost my consideration for others. Right now, I don't care. I understand that there will be consequences for my selfish actions, so be it.
I based my life on seizing opportunity and taking advantage of favorable situations. I'm not about to apologize for that.