Thursday, July 23, 2009

I'll have plenty of time to do that later!

In elementary school we do the things we will be doing in middle school. In middle school it's for high school. In high school we are doing things like how we are going to do them in college. At college we do things how they are done in the real world. In the real world… it has been in our nature to plan ahead as we've done our whole lives.

The way to really enjoy yourself here in the real world is to just stop over planning and live in the moment.

For two years in a row you are going to just sit back, take it easy, and be responsible. That’s completely fine, I don't care. Go ahead and waste the prime of your life. "I'll have plenty of time to do that later."

I don’t know if it was my near death experience in the car or something, but I can't help sitting here and thinking:

Nope, you aren't going to go next year. Next year, you are going to tell me about how you are "saving and planning for next year". And so on… and so on… until you reach the age where you finally DO GO and think "I'm too old for this, I should responsible"...

When will people realize that the moment is just as important as the future.

Come on, enjoy yourself in this moment because today is the future of yesterday.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Insatiable

I first thought this to be a blessing. An unexplained virtue that allows me to push myself past my limits and achieve great things. What I talk about is an intangible asset, something you can't learn from a textbook. It goes by many names: drive, ambition, never being satisfied, always wanting better, being insatiable.

As great as that sounds, I have discovered recently that never being satisfied is more of a plague. In some applications it is very useful. When this trait finds its way into other areas of my life and shows itself in a circular form... then it becomes a plague.

Math Time. Events are called mutually exclusive when they cannot occur at the same time. Let there be two mutually exclusive events, A and B. If in event A I yearn for event B, and if in event B I yearn for event A... we have what is mathematically and scientifically called… a clustermindfuckofshit.